Two Enema Morning

We greet this day with love in our heart,
gratitude in our attitude,
and two Fleet enemas yet in the box.
Ya, we must start the day NPO (nothing taken by mouth) and two enemas as part of the prep for my second colonoscopy, in which the good Dr. Kessler will have another good look around, and to [...]

Greetings from Port Jeff

Trusting the process…

I will be going to look at a studio apartment this morning… one that was available back in September when I was looking, as there were only two I had called–only two had rents I could barely afford, and I remembered this guy’s answering machine message.
Anyway, I did get to talk with him over the [...]

Don’t Muck With Your Meds

…and yet another loss

The loss of a dream… of the website I spent literally hours creating… one click at a time… back and forth from tutorial and help pages… hours… countless hours… an enormous amount of time and energy is now about to vanish into nothingness… as if it had never been… which is pretty much how it [...]

Much easier being on the outside…

Grrrlfriend is much impressed with the Harlan video, and understands completely why it is that I seem to be more comfortable as it is always easier for me to communicate with others when I feel safe.
That’s why I had such a difficult time with doing the standup, because I didn’t know who I was supposed [...]

Harlan’s been a long time coming

For years now I’ve been wanting to perform as a man, thinking that someday I would either do a stand up routine or as a character in a “spoken word” act.
I always knew that he would be an ex-herion addict/street junkie.
Why he was brought into the world last night, I couldn’t say, but Harlan hath [...]

Teeter-tottering on the edge

Seesaw knock on the door
Whose there
Grandpa
Whaddya want
A glass of beer
Where’s your money
In my pocket
Where’s your pocket
In my pants
Where’s your pants
I left them home
Get outta here you drunken bum

I must be mad.
Crazy.
Insane.
I feel out of control… yet I keep going… putting one foot in front of the other… telling myself that I’m okay… that nothing Awful [...]

Must act as if I’m well…

I moved into my current place of residence on September 8th.
Almost all of my belongings were left where I had been living for the past nine and a half years, owing to a severe infestation of bird mites and who knows what else… as sparrows had been living up in the peak of the roof, [...]

May this day be filled with joy…